August 2, 2015 - "It was a hard week"

We saw this chapping and thought it was pretty funny. This is a door bell tapped to a door. We're pretty sure it doesn't work like that.... haha... it put a smile on our faces.

 


(mom here:) Sister McBride with her companion who is on the far left.  The other two sisters are the ones that they went on splits with. Holly the sister to the left of sister McBride (in blue) is going on a mission in two weeks to London but is going to the provo MTC. Chelsea The one on the far right wants to go on a mission but still is only 17.

 Lots of up and downs this week but we're doing great! I'll admit, this week was super duper hard.

Splits were a bit crazy. Holly is leaving in about 2 weeks now to Provo and then after the MTC she's off to the London South mission (kind of weird) but she went with me on splits and Chelsea went with sister reed. We planned on a lot of lessons but we only ended up with 4 so we each got 2 and one of our cancelled :/ it was our friends Jim who since has dropped us completely and no longer wants to be baptized... we're still not really sure why. He was nice about but we were still sad. I think I can officially say he was the first investigator I've cried over (just a wee bit). I've worried and pondered, plead and prayed but never cried until now. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that he was our only progressing investigator all the other ones we haven't been in contact with at all for the last 3 weeks due to different reasons and a missionary who isn't teaching is an unhappy missionary! So hopefully this week will be on the rise and we will be more diligent in our finding, chapping and contacting time so that we can find those prepared people. Anyway it was a day full of finding which is something  that I needed and I have a new found respect for trainers especially mine since Holly was afraid to talk to people and was just like me when I came out haha..

I just woke up Tuesday feeling rubbish. It's been hard because I have been a little homesick.  I think it's hitting me that I won't be there for Christmas or  for Conners Senior year and for Jim and Taelor going off to college and the family reunion! I think that is what's hard for me. I don't want anyone to change haha. I want to see Conner graduate I want to be able to be a family with just us (which is so selfish). I don't want things to be different when I get home and I know I can't have that and I knew I couldn't have that when I went out (I just didn't feel the effects of it until now) I just really miss everyone and it's been hard. I didn't think I would get this homesick! But I'm figuring out what to do and we've been talking with the Sister Training Leaders so that's helped and we have a really great district leader. He and his companion are giving us blessings tomorrow after District Meeting so that will be good. Ultimately I know that this is the most important work I could ever do next to having a family. That in WOW! 10months time I won't be wearing a name badge or talking with people about the gospel. It's just so hard to keep that perspective when you see the world running around you and you feel like your standing still, watching everyone live on without you. It's especially hard when you're not teaching anyone or your not seeing the rewards for your hard work so you feel like you need to work harder and then you feel overwhelmed by that idea and it just stresses me out. But I know that I am working hard! Yeah there are things I need to improve in but ultimately I want to serve and I'm serving the best I can. I know the Lord wants me here and that I will be blessed with uncountable blessings for my imperfect service! And that I take great comfort in. What is 18months for others eternal salvation? I've just been having a hard time lately, but it will pass and I hope it passes soon. Dunna worry too much about me I'm on the Lords side and He's walking the streets with me and is chapping every door that I chap. It'll be a great week!! :)

 The church is definitely true and this work is the work of the Lord and It's the most important thing in the world. we are apart of the salvation of souls.

Love you all!